So Stressed & Compulsive

“On a day to day basis, I’m stressed out, agitated, with moments of high anxiety. When prisoners aren’t screaming all night, I sleep. Abuse by staff is normal, yet not done on a daily constant basis. Refusing to allow me a shower, or denying me a food tray because some staff doesn’t like my supposed attitude does occur. I have developed a compulsive disorder to the effect that I’m constantly cleaning my cell and washing my hands. Even though I know it’s clean. I’m now really germaphobic because bodily fluids are often thrown in these type of units.” -5 years in long-term segregation, Michigan, Baraga Maximum Correctional Facility